我正在尋找人生中，能讓我重新燃起靈感的東西。
Lookin’ for somethin’ in my life to be inspired again.
我總是假裝不知道問題在哪出了錯。
但我知道，我只是不想真正的投入進去。
I like to walk around and act like I don’t know what it is.
But I know what it is, I just never wanna commit.
《 The Search 》 是 NF 在2019年7月26日發表的第四張錄音室專輯，共收錄二十首歌曲。
Producers
Tommee Profitt & NF
Writers
NF & Tommee Profitt
[Verse 1]
Yeah, look
耶，聽著
I don't do drugs, I'm addicted to the pain though
我不碰毒品，但我對痛苦上癮
Yeah, I been on it for a while, dunno how to put it down
是啊，我沉迷了好一陣子，不知道該怎麼放下
Gotta have it, it's a habit I'ma break though
我必須要得到，這是個習慣，但我會改掉
I just wanna take a hit, keep sayin' I'ma quit
我只是想來一口，我一直說我要戒掉
Keep sayin' I'ma leave, but I stay though
我一直說我要離開，但我還是留了下來
I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk
我只是想要一點點改變，不想冒太大的風險
I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone
我不喜歡自己偏離安全區
But lately, I been thinkin' I'ma have to
但最近，我開始覺得我必須這麼做
Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to
放下那些我太過執著的東西
World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood
這世界不會因為我心情不好就停下
You don't know what love is 'til you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose
你不會知道什麼是愛，直到你抓著某樣不能失去的東西
That’s why I'm tryna get it together
這就是為什麼我努力讓自己振作
Sleeves up, puttin' work in, tryna be better
我捲起袖子，努力工作，想變得更好
I like to rap, but I ain't gon' do it forever
我喜歡饒舌，但我不會做一輩子
Forget the charts, I've been focusin' on holdin' my head up
別管排行榜表現怎麼樣，我更在乎自己能否堂堂正正的抬起頭
Moment I get up, I just wanna know I'm doin' my best
當我早上醒來，我只想知道自己有盡了全力
And if I'm not, Lord forgive me, you can have the regrets
如果沒有，主啊請原諒我，那些遺憾就交給你吧
'Cause I can feel the water tryna go up over my head
因為我能感覺到水正試著淹沒我
Most of my life, I always felt like I was holdin' my breath
活了大半輩子，我總覺得自己像是憋著一口氣
Holdin' my chest, to be honest, oh, I'm tired of it
壓著我的胸口，老實說，我已經受夠了
Lookin' for somethin' in my life to be inspired again
我正在尋找人生中，能讓我重新燃起靈感的東西
I like to walk around and act like I don't know what it is
我總是假裝不知道問題在哪出了錯
But I know what it is, I just never wanna commit
但我知道，我只是不想真正的投入進去
[Chorus]
Runnin' from change
我逃避改變
I'm lookin' for change
我正在尋找改變
I'm searchin' for change
我正在追尋改變
I'm lookin' for change
我正在尋找改變
I just want, I just want change
我只想，我只想要改變
[Verse 2]
Yeah, I don't like new things
是啊，我不喜歡新的東西
Got a lot of mood swings
情緒起伏太大
Oh, you wanna tell me somethin' negative?
哦，你想對我說些負面的話？
I don't wanna hear what you think
我並不想聽你怎麼想
Yeah, tossin' in my sleep
是的，我每晚都輾轉難眠
Every night for like two weeks
差不多是持續整整兩個星期
Thinkin' 'bout how I could have done this or done that better
我一直在想，我是不是本來可以做得更好
Can't help it, that's just me (Lies)
我控制不了，這就是我（謊言）
That's me avoidin' the change
這就是我，在逃避改變
Yeah, that's probably why the issues ain't goin' away
是啊，這大概就是為什麼，問題總是無法得到解決的原因
Yeah, that's probably why I always sit around and complain
是啊，這也可能就是為什麼，我總是待在原地抱怨四周環境
Tellin' myself that I ain't never gettin' out of this place
我一直告訴自己，我永遠無法逃出這個地方
Out of my face if you tellin' me I need to be different
別來煩我，如果你只是要告訴我該怎麼去改變
That's the issue though, I'm always insecurity-driven
問題就在這，我總是被不安全感驅使著
Takin' the wrong turns, actin' like I know where I'm headed
我走錯很多彎路，卻裝得好像自己知道正確方向
Waitin' for somethin' bad to happen, I can snap any minute
隨時準備好事情會崩壞，只需一秒就可能爆發
I need change
我需要改變
Yeah, that's kinda easy to say, right?
是啊，說起來很容易，對吧？
But difficult to do when I feel like I hate life
但當我覺得自己恨透了人生，做起來就很難
And everyone around me kinda thinks I'm a great guy
而身邊每個人都覺得我是個好人
But I don't ever think it, so I think I'm a fake liar
但我從來不這麼認為，所以我覺得自己是個偽君子
Change
改變
It's somethin' that I know I should do
我知道這就是我最應該去做的事
I'm a little uncomfortable, to tell you the truth
老實說，我有點不舒服，去談論這些事實真相
But to be honest with you lately, I got nothin' to lose
但最近說真的，我也沒什麼好失去的
See, I've always been full of pain, but now I'm makin' some room
你看，我一直都滿是痛苦，但現在我開始為自己的內心騰出點空間
[Chorus]
Lookin' for change
尋找著改變
I'm lookin' for change
我正在尋找改變
I'm searchin' for change
我正在追尋改變
I'm lookin' for change
我正在尋找改變
I just want, I just want—
我只想，我只想要—
[Verse 3]
I need a moment of silence
我需要片刻的寂靜
I don't like change, but I'll try it
我不喜歡改變，但我會嘗試
I don't wanna hear what I should or I shouldn't do
我不想聽到那些我該，或不該做的話語
Why are they always defiant?
為什麼他們總是那麼反抗？
See, all my emotions are liars
你看，我的情緒全都在說謊
All my emotions are violent
我的情緒全都充滿暴力
They don't want freedom to find me
它們並不希望我找到自由
Mention the name and everybody riots (Change)
一提到「改變」，身上每個細胞就像暴動一樣（改變）
Yeah, that's why I'm checkin' my vitals
對，這就是為什麼我會時刻檢查自己的生命跡象
They keep on workin', but I know
它們還在運作，但我知道
Breathin' don't mean you're alive, so
呼吸並不代表你還活著
I bag up all of my trash and walk out on my tightrope
所以我把所有垃圾情緒打包，走上屬於我的那條鋼索上
Positive thoughts are my rivals (Change)
正面思考是我的敵人（改變）
I'm tryna be on their side though
但我正在試著站在它們那一邊
Should I feel comfortable? I don't
我該覺得自在嗎？我不覺得
Last year, I felt suicidal
去年，我曾經有過輕生的念頭
This year, I might do somethin' different like talkin' to God more
可今年，我可能會做點不一樣的事——像是，多跟上帝說說話
[Chorus]
I'm lookin' for change
我正在尋找改變
I'm lookin' for (Yeah)
我正在尋找
I'm searchin' for change
我正在追尋改變
I'm lookin' for
我正在追尋
I just want, I just want change
我只想，我只想要改變
I'm lookin' for (Yeah)
我正在尋找
I'm searchin' for change
我正在追尋改變
I'm lookin' for, yeah (Ayy, ayy)
我正在追尋
I just want, I just want change
我只想，我只想要改變
Yeah, I'm lookin' for (Lookin' for)
是的，我正在尋找
I'm searchin' for change
我正在追尋改變
I'm lookin' for (Yeah)
我正在追尋
I just want, I just want change
我只想，我只想要改變
I'm lookin' for (Ayy)
我正在尋找
I'm searchin' for change (Ayy)
我正在追尋改變
I'm lookin' for, yeah
我正在追尋
I just want, I just want change
我只想，我只想要改變
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