我現在出了牢籠，我該往哪走？
Out the cell now, where am I headed?
我是不是要墮入地獄？還是我能找到天堂？
我會好過一些，還是會更後悔？
Am I Hell-bound? Will I find Heaven?
Will I feel better or just regret it?
《 The Search 》 是 NF 在2019年7月26日發表的第四張錄音室專輯，共收錄二十首歌曲。
Producers
Tommee Profitt, Saint X & NF
Writers
NF, Tommee Profitt & Saint X
[Verse 1]
Talk to you with my hands tied
我在與你溝通時感到無能為力
Walk towards you on a fine line
像是走在鋼索上，小心翼翼地向你靠近
Everybody has a dark side
每個人的內心都有黑暗的一面
I feel embarrassed when they see mine
當他們看到我的時候，我感到羞愧
Rain falling from my dark skies
我的天空黑雲密布，下著暴雨
Clouds parting, but it's all lies
雲開霧散，但那全是謊言
Shouldn't I see the sunshine now?
我現在不是該看到陽光了嗎？
Wonder how I look in God's eyes
我很好奇在上帝眼中我是什麼模樣
Am I a good person or a lost one?
我是個好人，還是個迷失的人？
Will this feel worth it when I'm all done?
當一切結束之後，這一切會值得嗎？
Will I feel ashamed or like who I was?
我會感到羞愧，還是認同過去的自己？
Will the pain vanish or will more come?
痛苦會消失，還是湧上來更多？
Will I stay numb or regain love?
我會一直麻木，還是重新感受到愛？
Maybe someday have a taste of freedom?
也許總有一天能嚐到自由的滋味？
Will I take the poison out of my blood?
我能把血液裡的毒素清除嗎？
Or just leave it there inside of my lungs?
還是就讓它停留在我的肺裡？
I know (Know, know)
我知道（知道，知道）
I should let you go, hands are feeling cold
我應該放手，我的手好冰冷
Just leave me alone (No, no, no)
就讓我一個人靜一靜（不，不，不）
I just want control, I feel so exposed
我只想掌控局面，我感到自己過於暴露
Liars in my home (No, no, no)
謊言就藏在我家中（不，不，不）
Please do not provoke, noose around my soul, I cut down a rope
請不要激怒我，靈魂被繩索勒住，我剪斷了繩子
They don't want me happy, they don't want me fixed
他們不想我快樂，他們不想我痊癒
They don't want me better, they just want me broke
他們不想我變好，他們只想我崩潰
Talk but never listen, at least I admit it
他們不斷說話卻從不傾聽，至少我承認
Block out all my vision, watchin' me diminish
他們封閉我的視野，看著我一點一滴消失
That's my favorite pastime, I know nothing different
那是我最喜歡的消遣辦法，我不知道其他的方式
Tell me something different, I don't see the difference
告訴我一些不一樣的辦法，但我看不出差異
I just feel offended, I just feel defensive
我只覺得被冒犯，我只覺得防備心過重
Why don't you accept me? I just need acceptance
你為什麼不接受我？我只需要被接納
Time is of the essence, don't like how we spend it
時間很寶貴，我不喜歡我們之間的相處方式
You just want perfection, I need you to let me
你只想要完美，而我只希望你能
[Chorus]
Let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
放開我，放我走，放開我，放我走
Let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
放開我，放我走，放開我，放我走
Let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
放開我，放我走，放開我，放我走
Let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
放開我，放我走，放開我，放我走
[Verse 2]
Why'd you say I don't belong here? (Huh?)
你為什麼說我不屬於這裡？
Fill a bucket full of my tears (Huh?)
用我的眼淚裝滿一桶水
Pouring out the water, all of my insecurities whenever I'm scared
每當我害怕時，所有的不安全感就像水一樣傾瀉而出
I watch 'em grow and say I don't care
我看著恐懼增長，卻假裝不在乎
I pray to God to ask if hope's real
我向上帝祈禱，問祂希望是否真實存在
And if it is, then I was thinking maybe You could introduce us, we ain't met still
如果真的有，那我想，也許祢可以介紹我們認識，因為我還沒遇見過
Yeah, my chest feels like a blade's in it
是啊，我胸口像插著一把刀
Who put it there? I think they did it
是誰插的？我想是他們幹的
Out the cell now, where am I headed?
我現在出了牢籠，我該往哪走？
Am I Hell-bound? Will I find Heaven?
我是不是要墮入地獄？還是我能找到天堂？
Will I feel better or just regret it?
我會好過一些，還是會更後悔？
If I let you go and find the seven letters
如果我放你走，然後找到那七個字母（freedom）
I've been looking for, it's like it's never endin'
我一直在尋找自由，可我就像是永遠找不到盡頭
Open all the doors and let the peace enter
我打開所有的門，讓平靜進入我的領地
I'm (So, so, so)
我（太，太，太）
Pitiful at times, miserable inside
有時真的很可憐，內心充滿痛苦
They want me to hide (No, no, no)
他們想要我隱藏起來（不，不，不）
How can I survive? Change your state of mind?
我該怎麼撐得下去？我該怎麼能改變心態？
I should say goodbye (No, no, no)
我是不是該說再見（不，不，不）
They want me to beg, they want me to plead, they want me to die
他們想要我乞求，他們想讓我下跪，他們想讓我死
They just want me dead, they just want me hurt
他們只想我消失，他們只想我受傷
Don't want me to live, don't want me alive
他們不想我活著，他們不想我存在
Stop with the pretending, I don't feel respected
別再假裝了，我一點都不覺得被尊重
I just feel rejected, I don't like rejection
我只覺得被拒絕，我討厭這種排斥感
You promise protection, I don't feel protected
你曾保證會保護著我，我卻一點也不覺得被保護
I just feel neglected, how can I respect it?
我只感覺被忽視，我要怎麼尊重這一切？
I'll teach them a lesson, I pick up the weapon
我要給他們來場教訓，我舉起武器
Aim in your direction, shoot at my reflection
對準你的方向，卻開槍打向我的倒影
Shatter my perception, hate it when I'm desperate
打碎我的認知，當我走投無路時我最討厭自己
You just want perfection, I want you to let me
你只想要完美，而我只希望你能
[Chorus]
Let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
放開我，放我走，放開我，放我走
Let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
放開我，放我走，放開我，放我走
Let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
放開我，放我走，放開我，放我走
Let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go (Let me go, ah)
放開我，放我走，放開我，放我走
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