我知道你一直在質疑生活。
I know you been questionin’ life.
相信我，我知道那是什麼感覺。
如果你需要有人傾聽，我就在這聽你訴說。
Trust me, I know what it’s like.
I’m here for you if you need someone to listen.
《 The Search 》 是 NF 在2019年7月26日發表的第四張錄音室專輯。
Producers
Tommee Profitt & NF
Writers
NF & Tommee Profitt
[Intro]
Happy birthday to you
祝你生日快樂
Happy birthday to you
祝你生日快樂
Happy birthday, dear Nathan
生日快樂，親愛的奈森
Happy birthday to you
祝你生日快樂
[Verse 1]
Yeah, sometimes I wanna disappear like I just don't exist
是的，有時我會想消失，就像我根本不存在一樣
Or find a time machine and take me back when I was six
或是找一台時光機帶我回到六歲那年
Maybe younger, either way, I guess the point of it
也許回到更年幼的時候，無論如何，我猜重要的是
Would be to tell that little kid that he's gon' take a lotta hits
我就是想告訴那個年幼的自己，將來的他會遭受到很多打擊
Yeah, I'd probably grab your hand and tell you life is hard
是的，我可能會握住你的手，告訴你生活很艱難
If you got questions or you need advice, then talk to God
如果你有什麼疑問或需要建議，你可以向上帝傾訴
'Cause He's the only one that listens even when you think He isn't
因為他是唯一會傾聽你的人，即使你認為他沒有在聽
Even good people are great at makin' bad decisions, yeah (Oh)
即使是好人也很容易做出錯誤的決定，是的
They ain't gon' take it serious
他們不會認真對待這件事情
You find out pretty quick that life is more than just appearances
你很快就會發現生活不只是表面上這麼簡單
I know some things we could avoid to save embarrassment
我知道有些事情我們可以避免，以免日後丟臉
But everything that breaks you down can also build your character
但所有能讓你崩潰的事情，也會藉此塑造你的性格
'Cause people love to see you fail, just be aware of it
因為人們喜歡看到你失敗，只要意識到這一點
Don't let nobody tell you who to be or write your narrative
不要讓任何人告訴你，你要成為誰，或為你的故事做決定
Look, we're all products of the things that we experience
看，我們都是經歷一些事情所創造出來的產物
But there's a big difference between confidence and arrogance
但自信和傲慢之間有很大的區別
You hearin' this?
你聽清楚了嗎？
I know that you don't get it now, but you gon' get it later
我知道你現在不明白，但你以後會明白的
I know you feel like you're alone and no one loves you maybe
我知道你覺得自己很孤獨，也許沒有人會愛你
And you gon' cover insecurities with lots of anger
你會用大量的憤怒來掩飾你的不安全感
The weird thing is someday all of this will make you famous (Oh)
奇怪的是突然有一天，這樣的舉動會讓你出名
You start to write about your life and while they're all relatin'
你開始寫你的生活，而他們都與此產生共鳴
You'll make up a slogan, call it "Real," but feel like you're the fakest
你會編一個口號，稱之為 “真實”，但卻覺得自己是最假的人
Wish I could tell you that your future's nothin' but amazin'
我希望我能告訴你，你的未來會非常美好
That's just not the case, and I guess I just don't know how to say this
可事實並非如此，我想我只是不知道該怎麼說才好
[Chorus]
I don't know if you can hear me or not
我不知道你是否能聽到我的聲音
But if you can, I just want you to know
但如果可以的話，我只想讓你知道
You gon' make a lotta mistakes
你會犯下很多的錯
And they gon' laugh in our face
所有人會當著我們的嘲笑我們
That's part of life, that's just the way that it goes
可這就是生活的一部分，這在正常不過
(That's just the way that it goes)
（這樣的事情在正常不過）
And I don't know if you can hear me or not
我不知道你是否聽得到我的聲音
But if you can, I just need you to get it
但如果可以的話，我只需要你了解
I know you been questionin' life
我知道你一直在質疑生活
Trust me, I know what it's like
相信我，我知道那是什麼感覺
I'm here for you if you need someone to listen
如果你需要有人傾聽，我就在這聽你訴說
Do you need someone to listen?
你需要有人傾聽你的聲音嗎？
[Verse 2]
See, Mom and Dad are not together, they took different routes
你看，爸爸和媽媽沒有在一起，他們走上了不同的路
But you probably already knew, you gettin' older now
但你可能已經知道，你現在長大懂事了
Remember back when Mom picked us up from Grandma's house?
還記得媽媽從奶奶家接我們回去的時候嗎？
And she hid her boyfriend in the trunk and drove a couple miles?
她把男友藏在後車箱裡，然後往前開了幾英里
Down the street, and then she pulled over to let him out
沿著街道走，然後她找個地方靠邊停車，好讓他下車
'Cause she ain't want Dad to know she had these type of dudes around
因為她不想讓爸爸知道，她的身邊有這樣一個傢伙存在
'Cause last time he found out, he had to take us from her
因為上次被他發現後，他不得不把我們從她身邊奪走
You look uncomfortable, I'm sorry, let me change the subject (Hey)
你看起來不舒服，對不起，讓我換個話題
You know how we've always struggled with abandonment? (Yeah)
你知道我們是如何與被拋棄的不安全感做鬥爭的嗎？
And when we feel like someone's leaving, we start panickin'? (Yeah)
當我們感覺到有人要離開時，我們就會開始恐慌？
And yo, I wish I could say I've learned to manage it
喲，我希望我能說，我已經學會了管理這樣的情緒
You think it's bad now, but you don't know the half of it
你覺得現在的我很糟糕，但你甚至連故事的一半都還未了解到
Passion is somethin' we have never lacked
激情是我們從來不缺的
We see it the most when we're writin' raps
當我們寫說唱時，我們最常看到這樣的熱忱
They think it's funny now, let 'em laugh
他們現在覺得很有趣，讓他們笑吧
I know you think it's just an outlet when you're really mad
我知道你認為這只是你生氣時的一種發洩方式
But you don't know the platform you're about to have (Oh)
但你不知道你將會要擁有什麼樣的平台
I know some things about the future you ain't ready for
我知道一些，關於你還沒準備好的未來
I know some things that you gon' cover up, but can't ignore
我知道有些事情你會將其掩蓋，但你不能忽視
And what hurts is they gon' surface at the worst moments
令人痛苦的是，那些事情會在最糟糕的時後浮出水面
And we gon' act like it don't hurt us, but it hurts, don't it?
我們會表現得好像那不會傷害到我們，但它確實很受傷，不是嗎？
We walk around with the devil talkin' on both shoulders
我們四處奔走，魔鬼就站在我們肩上竊竊私語
Wish I could tell you that he disappears when we get older
我多希望我能告訴你，只要等我們長大，他就會消失的
But that's just not the case, and I know you feel out of place
但事實並非如此，我知道你覺得很不自在
And everything is not okay, and life can be a lot to take, but…
一切都不太順利，生活可能會經歷很多事情，但是…
[Chorus]
I don't know if you can hear me or not
我不知道你是否能聽到我的聲音
But if you can, I just want you to know
但如果可以的話，我只想讓你知道
You gon' make a lotta mistakes
你會犯下很多的錯
And they gon' laugh in our face
所有人會當著我們的嘲笑我們
That's part of life, that's just the way that it goes
可這就是生活的一部分，這在正常不過
(That's just the way that it goes)
（這樣的事情在正常不過）
And I don't know if you can hear me or not
我不知道你是否聽得到我的聲音
But if you can, I just need you to get it
但如果可以的話，我只需要你了解
I know you been questionin' life
我知道你一直在質疑生活
Trust me, I know what it's like
相信我，我知道那是什麼感覺
I'm here for you if you need someone to listen
如果你需要有人傾聽，我就在這聽你訴說
Do you need someone to listen?
你需要有人傾聽你的聲音嗎？
[Verse 3]
You know how intoxicated people make us nervous?
你知道喝醉的人會讓我們多緊張嗎？
To the point sometimes we shake and it feels so disturbin'
有時我們會顫抖，感覺很不安
Don't be scared, that's just trauma tryna reach the surface
別害怕，那只是創傷試圖浮出水面
And tell us everyone we love is gonna try to hurt us
它在隱約的告訴我們，每個我們所愛的人都會試圖傷害我們
Which isn't true, but it's a lie that both of us believe in
這不是真的，但這是我們都相信的謊言
Yeah, you might get a glimpse of happiness from your achievements
是的，你可能會從你的成就中瞥見幸福
But what you'll learn as you get older, every time you reach one
但隨著年齡的增長，每當你達到目標時，你會學到什麼
Is you'll just make another goal that doesn't lead to freedom
你是否只會設定另一個不會為你帶來自由的目標
See, some things about to happen that you can't imagine
看吧，有些事情即將發生，你無法去想像
At 24, you'll drop an album, and you'll call it Mansion
在24歲的時候，你會推出一張專輯，你會把它命名為 Mansion (內心的豪宅)
At 25, you'll put out Therapy and gain some traction
在25歲時，你推出另一張專輯 Therapy Session (治療療程)，並獲得一些吸引力
Skip to track number four, now that's a really sad one
請略過第四首歌，那真的是一首非常悲傷到極致的歌曲
Yeah, Perception's coming next, we 'bout to reach the masses
是的，Perception (洞察力) 的到來，我們接觸到更多的觀眾
It sounds awesome; at the same time, it doesn't matter
聽起來棒極了；在此同時，那都並不重要
At 27, we'll make millions, but it's really sad 'cause
在27歲時，我們將賺到數百萬美元，但這真的很可悲，因為
You learn to realize that none of this will make you happy
你學會認識到，這一切都不會讓你感到快樂
[Outro]
I wish that I could look at you with empathy
我希望我能用同理心看著你
Sometimes I feel like I've become what you were scared to be
有時我覺得，我已經變成你害怕成為的模樣
Which makes it really hard to look at you with sympathy
這讓我很難用同情的眼光看著你
'Cause if I'm feeling bad for you, then I have to feel bad for me
因為如果我為你感到難過，那麼我也必須為自己感到難過
And that's just something I feel like we don't deserve
而我覺得這是我們不值得去得到的
That's why I'm always looking down on you, I know it hurts
這就是為什麼我總是看不起你，我知道這很痛苦
I'm sure you have a lot of questions
我相信你有很多問題
I've been tryna search to find us both some answers
我一直在嘗試為我們倆尋找一些答案
I'll be here for you if things get worse
如果事情變得更糟，我會在這裡支持你
（Too many faces, too many faces, too many faces）
（太多的面孔，見過太多的面孔，見過太多不同的面孔）
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